Drink

Some days I think it’ll take a miracle for me to ever

feel loved

now I want to smash pianos

drink from a snow melted river

And buy a blueberry donut as a peace offering

I’m trying

I’m trying

I’m trying

To come back

Hiding how I want to sob

How can they see me

when they don’t see themselves

He wants a soft person who doesn’t argue

passive

motherly

Not fired into the world like a cannon

I swear it

I felt it when his ear

pressed against my ear

The quietest places speak so

definitively

If you’d stop

To be present

Wish you’d heard what I

burned

and splashed

Smothered in vanilla

I’m going to run

through your brain

muscles

heart

blood

Like a little mouse

forever