Get out of the bath

I know you don’t feel loved anymore

I wonder how she removes her clothes

when she’s alone

I subway

to his door

fifteen years in a step and

I’m so different now

Nothing better than Big

Big buildings

Big books

Big words

to express how we got here

you don’t have permission to hang out with my heart

can’t name all the things you’ve ruined for me

I sat on top of my car

on a cold foggy night

to wait

because that’s what

you wanted from me

what I was asked to do

but you lied

and lied

and lied

Remorse removes hours of pain

It’s helpful

human

and can bring peace.

I fear your map is drawn

he swallowed your compass

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Measured time by picking blueberries

How many children you birthed versus how many you raised

What color is stardust?

You’ve cost me a lot of money, guest

I don’t have answers for you

Because I barely have answers for myself

 

Measured time by picking strawberries

Sparkling into relaxation

Stumbled into astonishment and lastly

Snuggling with dread

We need help

To get rid of him

I tip toe to my death

Moon watching 

Watching magpies and me

My brain feels enlarged as you lie

I scatter 

Little mice 

Up my spine into my hair 

The moon stays the same 

Mama please remind me 

How it shined for both of us

No matter where we are 

Saturated rainbow lorikeets 

Have died

My brain drowns 

Twin engines

Denied

By your tattle tails

I revisit

I don’t linger

All I know now

Brings a smirk

And some decent

Calm

That the board game

Folded

Blue chalked sidewalk 

Dull knife pierces 

a shiny red heart shaped balloon 

Hello, rain 

Dropping leaves dripping

Overgrown bangs

Cold hands 

I’m inside the iced covered pond 

She wasn’t born on Valentine’s Day 

She was a cheerleader

 but 

not at the right time

little pigeon 

Three little pigeons 

She took great care 

Home covered in snow 

surrounded by tigers with star halos 

I can’t misuse Pedro’s magic 

And forget where the fireflies sleep 

Wednesday’s are for the beach 
Sunday’s for ice cream 

Did you see the smiling moon, 

sister mother, 

mother sister 

So much power 

In snow whites hair 

Everything is in my imagination, little mouse 

Sorry you’re uncomfortable 

sorry we’re not accommodating 

sorry you’re suffocating 

Recycle your soul

Hold on black swan, 

hold on 

She traces the lens 

Repeating what if

What if 

What if 

I’m gonna borrow her voice 

because 

She never imagined she’d bury him

five days after her birthday 

Forget and fly 

How many bad calendar days 

will you provide 

How many stirred paintings 

have heard your stories 

The dear dog shakes his head in disbelief 

The most pathetic you 

who soars to watch others rot 

Resist the urge to trust 

Butterflies are still beautiful upside down 

What happened

I am loved 

I am loved 

I am loved